Dear readers, I will try as much as possible to explain exactly how I am feeling right now since my best friend asked me to date him. One prayer I always find myself making every time a friend proves his worth and loyalty towards me is; ‘Lord let nothing come between my friend and me.’
Dominic and I have been friends since our nursery school days in the barracks. We defended each other against anyone who tried to come in between us or make trouble with us. As a matter of fact, there are some little secrets not known to any other person or persons that we both share. We adored each other even though; we have had some fights and arguments that separated us for weeks and even for months before we settled.
Good friends are hard to come bye that is why Dominic and I value each other so much. Despite the relationship that exists between the two of us; we never blocked each other’s way when it came to having an affair with the opposite sex. Though, there are times I have been jealous seeing him with his girlfriend, it didn’t bother me for too long. I never said yes to any man until Dominic approves, and the same thing applies to me. I chose every girl he has dated all his life, and I was always a part of any decision when it comes to severing any relationship with a girl.
There are guys who believe that what exists between Dominic and I is beyond what everyone understands it to be; and I don’t really blame them. We have had to defend what exist between the two of us on so many occasions; even to our parents. The only time we never get to spend together as friends is when we both return to our various universities. There have been times when he had to spend nights in our house; that is just to let you know how close we are.
Not quite long ago, Dominic asked me to think or consider the possibility of both of us dating each other. He said it is an idea that keeps coming through his mind, and he suggested we gave it a thought. I felt funny and embarrassed the first time he mentioned that, and I thought it was one of his usual ways of cheering me up when something went wrong. To be honest with you, I just got out of a terrible relationship with someone; and I was really feeling down; so I thought it was just a joke.
Two days later he said the same thing, and asked if I had given his suggestion a thought. He said he doesn’t want me to suffer any longer because to be honest, I have not been lucky with guys. Most guys I had dated in the past always felt like something funny was going on between Dominic and I; but of course, this is not true. So, when he repeated the same thing again, I had to look straight at his face; and that was when I knew he wasn’t joking. I know him very well, we have been friends since childhood; and I think I know him enough to judge when he is serious.
I have not been myself since it became obvious that he was serious with what he said. As a matter of fact, the only thing that comes to my mind is how things may never be the same again. I am not in talking terms with a lot of guys because we went into a relationship, and now my best friend wants a relationship; what does that tell you? I don’t want a relationship with him because I don’t want to lose his friendship. I had since told him this, but he says he understands my point; but he won’t give up.
It is an understatement to say I love Dominic; but how can I risk the bond that exists between us. I can’t even imagine us making love together; it scares me because I also see him as a brother.
Please help me because I am no longer normal. Things are no longer natural between the two of us; I can’t even look at his face the way I used to.
What should I do?
