Ireti and I have been married for four years now, and nothing out of the ordinary suggests that she never liked the size of my joystick. I always knew women are gossips, but it never occurred to me that Ireti could go that far; whatever pushed her into turning my joystick into a topic of discussion between her and her friends?
The size of my manhood has always been a problem since my childhood days. Those days in the boarding school, my housemates had always mocked the size of my manhood. This became a huge problem for me, and since there was nothing I could do to stop them from poking fun at me; I never went to the bathroom when everyone was there. My timing never clashes with theirs as I felt that was the only way to avoid being taken for a ride.
Since I knew that was my biggest problem, and nothing could be done to increase the size without suffering from side effects; I resorted to reading books and making research on how to sexually satisfy a woman regardless of the size of my joystick. My research and studies didn’t end in vain as I what was then a shortcoming became a source of strength. Though, thoughts of what a lady would say anything I pulled off my shorts in the bedroom was always a major concern for me then; I gradually grew in confidence and never bothered much about it.
Imagine my pain and frustration when I overheard my wife and her friends gossiping about the length of my joystick. Though, she bragged about how good I am on the bed, I really felt embarrassed that a woman who calls herself my wife could make my joystick the subject of her discussion.
I have confronted her already, and made it clear that her attitude was quite shocking to me. The most troubling part of it is that she doesn’t see any big deal in it; claiming that “guys also chatter about girl’s things” without holding back. She asked me to look into her eyes and deny if she had never been a subject of discussion among my friends?
We have been cold towards each other since then, and nothing intimate has taken place between us since then. Her friends have stopped coming to our house, and I guess it’s because she has told them how the last gossip they had in my house went. I am glad they have stopped coming because I can’t imagine how facing them would be like.
My ego is badly hurt, and I don’t know how I can encourage myself to undressing before my wife again. I always knew I had a small joystick; but I never knew it could be a subject of discussion among my wife and her friends.
Psychologically and emotionally I am down, and can’t imagine making love to her again without thoughts of what happened on that day not ruining the whole thing.
I need help on what to do…